Violence plagues Chicago

13 year old Robert Freedman was shot 22 times outside his house in Pullman area. Supposedly mistaken but the question is why is this tolerable? Why is it that America can gain control of another country yet lack providing proper protection for there own. No, fuck the National Guards coming in to take order or hiring another 100 police officers, how about money for education, community centers and the basic needs of survival. The things that those communities have that DON'T have gunshots outside there window every night.


More info:
http://www.suntimes.com/news/24-7/2546878,pullman-shooting-teen-dies-072910.article

"Police are questioning a man after a woman was shot in the neck in a possible accidental domestic incident Sunday morning in the West Pullman neighborhood on the Far South Side."
http://www.suntimes.com/news/24-7/2555126,south-side-shooting-neck-080110.article


"Four women were shot -- two of them multiple times and left critically wounded -- outside a party in West Side Garfield Park early Sunday."
http://www.suntimes.com/news/24-7/2555122,garfield-park-shooting-080110.article

The question can longer be why, but what role do we play in bringing about change?

The artist is in action

Vogue says NO to Vogue Africa







Cameroonian photographer Mario Epanya has spent much of his free time shooting a fictional magazine. Epanya went all out in his campaign to make “Vogue Africa” a reality.
Vogue is currently published in 18 countries and one region, but Africa has never been selected to play home to the mag.
In order to get publisher Conde Nast to see the potential in the magazine – that would pay homage to African women – Epanya created fake covers, with beautiful models and styling.
But all his hard work did not pay off. Conde Nast has turned down his bid for the magazine.

He posted on his Facebook page::
“DEAR ALL. The Wait is over. Condé Nast said NO to an African license of VOGUE. So this is the last cover. Enjoy, but it’s a beginning of something,”

With all of the hard work Epanya put into creating his pitch for the magazine, I see no reason as to deny Africa the opportunity to front page and center. Of course, if you open a Vogue magazine it is evident that unless you are an established entertainer of some sort, the chances of seeing blacks in the magazine are slim to none.

And the world keep trying tell the Artist that racism don't exist, well Im telling you, Im not convinced. AT ALL!

First off, I can't think of any reasons as to why this is not a good idea! His concept for the magazine would not only begin to put Africa on a map but change the images of blacks worldwide. The images he created were far from typical and he explored the dynamics and variety of beauty that blacks all over the world share but is rarely seen in mainstream media.

But you know what, I can smell your fear Conde. I am sure you know that people would only want more of this beauty and you wouldn't be able to handle it. Or maybe its because you don't have access or the ability to create powerful issues such as Epenya pitched or the demand for more images of Africans would increase which goes against Vogue moral standing. However, I am sure Epenya time is coming because Black is Beautiful!

HIV Test Trial

Researchers plan to test about 40,000 South Africans for HIV in the biggest trial yet of a theory for halting transmission of the AIDS-causing virus.

In a five-year study set to start this year, scientists from France and South Africa will screen everyone in 30 South African regions, said Bernard Hirschel, head of the HIV-AIDS unit of Geneva University Hospital in Switzerland. In half the regions, they’ll start treatment immediately for those who test positive. In the other half, they’ll wait until the patients’ immune systems deteriorate to a certain level, Hirschel said.

The experiment is designed to see whether starting treatment straight away can reduce or eliminate transmission of HIV, which infects 2.7 million people and kills 2 million every year. The World Health Organization recommends that patients not receive HIV drugs, which can have serious side effects, until their infection-fighting cells fall below a certain level. The drugs lower HIV to undetectable levels in the blood, reducing patients’ chances of transmitting the virus, studies have shown.

“If you apply this on a large scale, you could theoretically eradicate HIV by diminishing transmission,” Hirschel told reporters at the International AIDS Conference in Vienna today.

A 2008 study led by researchers at the Geneva-based WHO suggested the spread of HIV in hard-hit African nations could be cut by 95 percent in a decade if all those infected started taking medicines immediately. That so-called test-and-treat theory has been disputed in other mathematical models that say those projections are based on flawed on assumptions.

The researchers have been planning the trial for two years, Hirschel said.

By Simeon Bennett

Projects in Berlin










Life in Berlin

Midpoint of the Journey!

I left Chicago headed to Berlin March 14. Arrived with very few expectations and knowing absolutely no one. Classes hadn't started yet and well, life was moving forward. As to date, I have been here for a little over three months now and things are just starting to make sense. I always have a problem over thinking situations and my life and trying to give everything reasoning, but my experience here has helped me with just settling with that is the now.
Three weeks after my arrival, classes started. I had already began to meet and go out and experience the city. School just added a little more structure to my daily routine. Since I have been here and the more I get used to certain cultural differences, I continue to get more and more comfortable of being away from family, friends and home in general.
Don't get me wrong, there are somethings such as the unsanitary waiters at restaurants who never washed there hands after handling money, receipts, dirty plates and then come fix your pasta and stir it up with their hands that I could never get used to but meeting such diverse and well rounded people is exciting for me. Everyone I come in contact with speak multiple languages, of course english being one of the many. A lot of people have traveled to different parts of the world and aren't as ignorant to cultural differences as much as I find Americans to be. Any-who, this entry isn't about America and its lack of concern with international experience.
After meeting my half way stay in Berlin, I have found and explored a new side of myself. I feel as though I am being forced to grow up twice. Living in a new country really makes you question your identity, especially in a country where there aren't as many of your own. I have came to understand how to some extent growing up in America as an African American in a lower class community has kind of set me up for a specific response when things take place outside of my familiar area. For example, Chicago is very segregated. Anyone from there know what streets to cross and which one are restricted depending on what area you are from. So, when I got to Berlin, I automatically expected to come and find a neighborhood where most of the blacks (African Diaspora) sort of meet and hang. But duh, this is not the US and it is not like that.
After learning more about Berlin culture and the immigrant situation, it became clearer that there sense of community came from different places. In result of this, I craved for a better understanding which also led to the developement of my project I am currently working on here called Lost and Found.
So, this is what the Artist has came up with and I can't wait to share footage!

Lost and Found

Lost and found is a documentary/narrative film about a young African American woman coming to Berlin and finding a part of herself. As this African American girl travel to Berlin she begins to interact directly and indirectly with Africans. She get a better understanding and gain a new respect for African culture and is able to take and share what has been lost in time. Germany is already a country with a horrible yet rich past. From genocides to wars each street tells a story. Lost and found shows a merge of cultures that all struggle with identity. In search to be whole again, you see a mixture of cultures but specifically Africans, African Germans and Germans share there stories just from daily interactions through the eyes of this young African American woman.

The conversation taking place thru the images and interactions of the people she meet helps her in deconstructing the myths of african diasporians. The integration process of africans into German culture resulting in a revelation of self discovery. It takes for one to leave home in order to began to have these real conversations about identity.
With the reunification of berlin, the city continue to define its culture. Lost and found uses the city as a backdrop and also represnts that when one undergo such a dramatic experience (the Wall for Berlin, slavery for Africans and African Americans) it becomes possible for these myths to be created because of seperation. In America, african-Americans have no reason to search or communicate with Africans. This is the same with Africans in Africa but because the blacks (africans and african americans) community In Berlin isn't as large as in there native land they are brought together for obvious reasons. Hair care, skin color, religious practices, etc. but this unification starts a dialogue that often dont take place anywhere else. The atmosphere that berlin creates bring these cultures together under unusual circumstances that no other country does.

Sex and the City VS Friday



Hollywood?

First I am willing to admit that sometimes I am anti-hollywood not because its hollywood but having opportunities to work in the industry I know from experience it is not what its hyped up 2 be and because alot of things I see just seem so distant from reality, cliche and ingenuine. However, there are some really good works that are created from the heart and not only to make a dollar but to make statements and represent the voices of the unheard and unspoken. It bothers me how some people prejudge without ever allowing there assumptions to be challenged or proven otherwise. To me, this is ignorance at its best.

I am not going to lie, since the movie Sex and the city came out, I refused to watch it because to me it has no connection to my lifestyle preference and just seem so unrealistic from the lives of the majority. After much thought, I decided to watch the film because whether i agreed with it or not, it is someones creation. So I did and I actually ended up really enjoying the film. I mean in tears more than once enjoying the film and will be going to watch part 2 =). Of course i have my critiques but hey some people do spend 500 on shoes and think nothing of it. The movie made statements on life from different perspetives and of course it just the southern girl who helps Carrie get her life back in order which can be viewed from many perspectives, I am going to take the positive one in this case. While it has a stereotypes that are constantly reinforced in almost every successful mainstream film which is one of my anti hollywood protest, this reality exist to some.
I have learned that the social constructs we build off of are only significant because of the approach of the conversation and also ones own life experience. When critiquing a film like Sex and the City my first argument would be that the first time you see a black person with any significance she is assistant to this well known white author who buys her her first real Louis Vuitton so she no longers has to rent them and the line that follows is "the best dollar I ever spent". As a filmmaker working towards social change and creating a voice for minorities in the industry i would not have made that choice. I mean, why couldn't one of the girls be black or one of the husbands. However, I am well aware that this is how the some people lives function.
The question I am trying to raise though is as an artist how do we stay true to ourselves and our own reality without feeding into these stereotypes. The media plays such an important role in creating our world views. Looking back at films like Friday or Baby Boy which can be criticized for being poor representations of the black community but also just wanting the world to understand that this too is not far from the realities of some but still being flexible and open to a film like Sex in the City having a all black cast because this too can be our reality and is for some.

The Artist thoughts...

Turning 21!


So young world,

My 21st is quickly approaching. Sending much love and plenty of thanks to God, my mother, father, family, the mentors, teachers, friends and support in general. I could never have made it this far without you all guidance or whatever life experience we share.
I write this with all humbleness on my heart, just looking back on the years and dreaming of the ones to come. First, I have never wanted normal birthday gifts or wanted to do normal things in life for that matter but I remember telling myself that I didn't want to celebrate my 21st in the states and that before I turn 21 I wanted to have experienced 3 countries. If you count the ones in passing then that would make it 6 but experienced, I have met my goal with 3! Quingdao, China was the 1st! Summer of 06'! Studied Mandarin Chinese and their culture. Lifetime experience with life long friends. Chihuahua, Mexico, Spring semester 07'! Produced a film using corn as a window to study Mexican culture! This experience was like no other! I went by myself, with a camera and a dream! no lie! Turned into an AMAZING adventure! Now, Berlin, Germany! Summer semester 10'. Exchange student at Berlin Uni. for the Arts.
For my 16th birthday, I wanted property! At 18, I wanted mutual funds! 21! I want to look at how my investments have grown! Everyone has control over the path they choose, make smart and wise decisions. It is true, you reap what you sow. I have been para sailing over the pacific ocean, Studied at UCLA, Mt. Holyoke, ran the youth program for Rainbow PUSH (Rev. Jesse Jackson organization), introduced President Obama (before he was the president though) and Mayor Daley, cut the ribbon for the opening of the Buckingham Fountain, motivational speaking on almost every coast... I have worked since I was 12 and always jobs that I love. My first job was at a daycare, a kid being paid to watch kids but they use to love me and my boss paid me in cash b/c well, I was too young. lol. I was in charge of the production of a 30 min. TV show weekly for CanTV, channel 19 that aired in Chi-Town and NYC! Scholarship recipient of The Pullman Foundation, Rainbow PUSH, Mayor Daley Chicago Park District, CoCo Cola....There is more that I am grateful for as well! Than, I have been blessed with the BIG one! The Beautner Family Award! of $50,000! and one of the 1st time this scholarship has been rewarded! (Big ups to the rest of the scholars!) Served 2 terms as student trustee, having the opportunity to sit along side of MAJOR successful people that I aspire to be like! Worked along side RENOWNED world leaders, had dinner with May Jemison (the 1st black astronaut), recited poetry to Nikki Giovani herself (sis Nekita saw it with her own eyes) lol, started at least 3 businesses from jewelry to party investments. Honestly, I could keep going but I just wanted to remind myself of these things I don't often appreciate. These years have been filled with excitement. Ups and downs, smiles and frowns, people coming and going, living and loving and I am NOWHERE near finish, not even halfway.
A year from my 21st birthday exactly, I will be graduating from COLLEGE! Seriously, next year graduation falls on my bday! I am happy! I am blessed, grateful and VERY THANKFUL! So let me be the 1st to say it, HAPPY 21st BDAY Whitney! Enjoy!

Lost and Found Series =) Part 1.

Lost and Found is the most recent project I am working on! It is in the very early stages of development and research. The project evolved from my travels to Berlin and having the chance to meet, wine and dine with Africans from all over the continent. The myth in the States is that Africans don't care to associate themselves with African Americans and prefer us to not refer to ourselves as Africans. You should know what coming next from the key word: MYTH!

So, I am currently gathering poems, songs, quotes, pictures, films, etc. that will be useful to this topic or subject matter of African Americans identity.

More info soon on why "Lost and Found" but until then please enjoy this performance by the lovely Smokey Robison about being Black in America ♥



My dedication to you...

"Perhaps all the questions we ask of love, to measure, test, probe, and save it, have the additional effect of cutting it short. Perhaps the reason we are unable to love is that we yearn to be loved, that is, we demand something (love) from our partner instead of delivering ourselves up to him demand-free and asking for nothing but his company."

The terribly inconvenient fact is that, without you around, everything slides back to how it was before. It can’t do otherwise. And I have to say, books haven’t helped much with all this. Because whenever you read anything about love, whenever anyone tries to define it, there’s always a state or an abstract noun, and I try to think of it like that. But actually, love is… Well, it’s just you. And when you go, it’s gone. Nothing abstract about it.

- Juliet, Naked, Nick Hornby

You light my fire!
Wait, I might die. Well, you could be the death of me ♥
W. S


"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet,
regardless of time, place, or circumstance.
The thread may stretch or tangle,
but it will never break."
-Red String of Fate

"I can’t think of any greater happiness than to be with you all the time, without interruption, endlessly, even though I feel that here in this world there’s no undisturbed place for our love, neither in the village nor anywhere else; and I dream of a grave, deep and narrow, where we could clasp each other in our arms as with clamps, and I would hide my face in you and you would hide your face in me, and nobody would ever see us any more."
-Franz Kafka, The Castle

Lets have this conversation! Why is it hard for successful black women to find a man?



I don't neccessarily agree with the topic because I feel that it is almost to general to make such a huge assumption but I do love some of the points people are making.
I have met black men that just choose to not associate themselves with black women for whatever reason, that is what makes me angry. From one bad experience you exclude a whole race from your dating realm! And even more important, YOUR race!
However, Im not sure if a conversation like this is what is needed but just a restoration in identity for black culture because as we, the world, begin to shift in gender roles, I assume all races are beginning to question the sudden growth in more single women as they began to venture out and do they own thing.
Women all over the world are becoming more independent, which is of course good for us because now more opportunities are opening up and women faces are being seen in positions that are usually male dominated. However, the problem, at least to me, is that men are having a harder time accepting this because it is such a huge paradigm shift when looking back at gender roles in history. So, the question I'm asking is it less about the race and more about the gender?
I mean look at the growth within the homosexual population. Both men and women are exploring because they no longer need each other to fulfill certain desires and needs because, for the most part, we can all do it now!

LEGGGGGOOOO!,

The Artist

New Toys!







I take what I do serious. The last few months have been challenging yet creatively satisfying! I am ready to conquer the world with my new babies ♥

The Artist @ work!

I had the wonderful opportunity to assist photographer/artist James Gregory Atkinson on set. It was a beautiful experience and I can't wait to see the finish!
Berlin, Germany 2010







Shot on super 8! Check out more of his work @ jamesgregoryatkinson.blogspot.com

Still counting...

My first film shoot! This piece is called Still Counting. Produced and Directed by your very own, The Artist. The version you are seeing is the first edited print without color correction and sound. The sound is a poem I wrote about my father called till counting and you hear a little girl counting 1 mississippi, 2 mississippi in the background. The shoot was fun. Hand edited, cut and sliced all the parts myself. Enjoy!



The final looks sooooo goood! Unfortunately, I dont have a digital print of the final...I finished on film :)

Sooo...

The cable network synonymous with "Flavor of Love" and its sleazy spin-offs is trading trampiness for fabulousness with a new slate of series starring seemingly well-adjusted rich and famous black Americans. VH1 executive vice president Jeff Olde admits that the shift from oh-no-they-didn't fare to more mature material is totally intentional.

"We constantly have to evolve and tell our audience different stories," he says. "I love that we've been able to get more diverse with our audience by — in large part — attracting African-American women to the network. We got them in the door with some shows, and now I'm excited about where we're going and how we're telling them different kinds of stories."

With an April 11 debut, "What Chilli Wants" will be partnered on Sundays with "Brandy & Ray J: A Family Business," focusing on sibling R&B singers Ray J and Brandy Norwood as they attempt to relaunch their music careers, and "Basketball Wives," starring Shaquille O'Neal's ex-wife, Shaunie O'Neal, and five other women with romantic links to basketball players.

For the notoriously trashy VH1, it's not reality as usual. While cat fights will flare up with the "Basketball Wives" and Chilli promises a tiff with her sassy matchmaker on "What Chilli Wants," these new shows certainly aren't selling buzzworthy moments akin to "Flavor of Love" contestants spiting on each other or suddenly defecating on the floor.

"I watched 'Flavor of Love' myself," attests Chilli. "It was definitely one of the shows I thought was interesting, but it made sense for Flav to do it just that way. For me, I wanted to do my show in a way that I would be comfortable with, and I was very happy that VH1 was on the same page with me. They did have a formula that has been working for them."

Olde dismisses any past criticisms of "Flavor of Love" and its offspring, mostly produced by 51 Minds Entertainment, by calling the franchise ignited by black rapper Flavor Flav and his multiracial harem "big fun romantic comedies." (Olde confirms that "I Love Money 3," featuring murder suspect and suicide victim Ryan Jenkins, as well as the Jenkins-free "I Love Money 4" won't air.)

Instead of lewd antics from "Flavor of Love" standout Tiffany "New York" Pollard or that toxic spill of "Charm School" women, the network is now interested in transformative experiences from celebrities, such as third season "American Idol" winner Fantasia Barrino or rapper Sandy "Pepa" Denton from Salt-N-Pepa. The evolution is already proving successful.

Premieres earlier this year of "Fantasia for Real" and "Let's Talk About Pep" topped that same week's third season debut of "Celebrity Rehab" and episodes of the seedy dating shows "For the Love of Ray J" and "Frank the Entertainer in a Basement Affair," which starred "I Love New York" reject Frank Maresca searching for love from his parent's basement.

"The new VH1 shows offer a different take on the black reality TV star," says Imani Perry, a professor at Princeton University's Center for African American Studies. "These are images of wealthy black families. These shows may potentially be less stereotypic because they present a different, higher status black image."

Bill Graff, an analyst for cable media analysis firm CableU, says the strategy isn't a surefire winner. While the new shows are targeted to an underserved audience, they require more of an investment from viewers, especially if they don't care about the personal lives of such B-list celebrities as Chilli and Brandy, or any of those "Basketball Wives."

"It's a little bit more of a leap for VH1 viewers than 'Flavor of Love,' 'Rock of Love' and the other shows," says Graff. "Anyone who watches VH1 definitely knows and is entertained by Flavor Flav and New York. Anyone who is familiar with hip-hop from the past 25 years knows Pepa from Salt-N-Pepa, but they may not necessarily care about her love life."

It's not as if VH1 is becoming BET, whose own affluent African-American docu-soap "Baldwin Hills" has been around for three seasons. The majority of VH1 series, such as "Celebrity Fit Club," "Sober House" and "Tough Love Couples," feature multiracial casts, as do mainstream network reality shows such as "The Amazing Race," "Survivor" and "American Idol." However, the new trio of shows with predominantly black stars will be scheduled together on Sundays.

"It's strange, because it almost feels like a different type of segregation," says actor-comedian Victor Varnado, who directed and starred with other black comedians in "The Awkward Comedy Show," Comedy Central's offbeat comedy special debuting April 9. "It's like this is where the black people can watch their black programming on this night."

VH1's Olde, however, notes that while the network's black-centric shows are most popular with African-American women, they attract viewers of all ethnicities and backgrounds. The popularity of Bravo's "The Real Housewives of Atlanta" proved that a reality show featuring a mostly black cast can cross ethnic lines and become a cultural phenomenon.

That doesn't mean this glitzy new breed is free of the stereotypes that have long plagued cable reality TV shows. Critics point to the continued inclusion of such black stereotypes as the gold-digging woman, the hypersexual and irresponsible man, and cast members prone to raging behavior and violence as a way to gratify viewers' voyeuristic desires.

"The choices that are made by producers, editors and performers in unscripted television to satisfy these audience desires are deliberate," says Princeton University's Perry. "We think we are getting something real, but what we are getting is an effort to satisfy our curiosity and feed our assumptions."

This makes me happy! How about u?


March yields first solid growth in jobs since recession...


However, the biggest burst in hiring in three years wasn't enough to lower the jobless rate, which held at 9.7%, the Labor Department reports. Economists still see a slow recovery in the labor market.
Reporting from Washington - The American economy added 162,000 new payroll jobs in March, the Labor Department said Friday, marking the first sign of substantial job growth since the Great Recession and the largest one-month increase in three years.

The job gains, however, weren't strong enough to bring down the unemployment rate, which remained at 9.7% in March for the third month in a row. And economists remained cautious, saying they expected the labor market recovery to be slow.

A chunk of the job increases in March, or 48,000 positions, came from the hiring of temporary workers by the Census Bureau. But the private sector generated 123,000 jobs last month, more than what many analysts were projecting.

Manufacturing payrolls expanded for the third month in a row, and the harbinger temporary-help industry added another 40,000 workers in March. Financial services and the information industry lost jobs, but healthcare, education, retailers and the leisure industry all added to their payrolls.

"It's the first month of really solid growth," said Bart van Ark, chief economist at the Conference Board, a business-membership and research organization in New York. "We see the job gains spreading across the economy."

Adding to the positive news, the government also revised upward the count of the nation's payrolls for the first two months of the year. It said the economy created 14,000 jobs in January instead of losing 26,000 as previously reported. And the losses in February were shaved by more than half, to 14,000.

Babara and Belinda the Builder

So everyone, me and my roomie is having a ball! You can call us Barbara and Belinda the Builder! lol! We pre-gamed to prepare us for our adventure to purchase furniture for "our" apartment. Yes!!! The girls stepped out! We went to a club called The Box at the Beach. Started with a red bull and ole grandpa liquor finally found the spot about time we finished our glasses because here drinking is allowed on the streets. Got to the spot, of course we were beautiful and we shut it DOWN. Drinks everywhere, handsome men and beautiful women, you know how that goes. When we left the sun was rising and were ready for part 2. Lets not forget we had the football team escorting us. We got it in!
The next couple days consisted of us getting lost in Berlin, loading and unloading of new furniture and putting it together. Late night girl talks and green lemon Becks (cause we classy, lol) and the crazy cat, Milou, jumping out of windows.
Well everyone, we successfully built everything on our rooms and we need to celebrate. We stepping out tonite. Shutting it DOWN! Ask in anyone in these clubs who stay on the dance floor the WHOLE night getting it in. Enjoying life. Jackie my darling, are you ready for the night? I already got us one ready, until then I found the paperwork I have been looking for for days. (Is that grammatically correct?) So, I have errands to tend to before I prepare for the night. Pictures coming soon.
Oh, the roomie is about her business though. She wakes up everyday and go to work Sunday-Sunday and is surviving in Berlin as a independent woman. She is an event manager at a restaurant in this famous art building and she brought info about the African Film Festival. Lets get get get it!

The Artist is out and missing yall like crazy! :)

Lets think people...

A Hyatt Hotel employee clobbered a CTA bus driver in the head with a hammer because he was refused a student fare, Cook County prosecutors said today.

Adan Valle, 18, demanded his dollar back after he inserted it into the No. 53A bus’ fare machine Tuesday afternoon and was told he couldn’t get the special rate without producing a high school or college ID, Assistant State’s Attorney Lorraine Scaduto said.
Adan Valle clobbered a CTA bus driver in the head with a hammer because he was refused a student fare, Cook County prosecutors said today.
Valle complained to the driver that he was able to get the discounted rate a day before without showing an ID and then started hitting the driver in the head with a hammer, Scaduto said.

Passengers who witnessed the attack called police and held Valle on the bus until officers arrived.

The 48-year-old driver was taken to Mount Sinai Hospital with lacerations.

Valle is a “laborer” at the Hyatt Hotel, according to a police report.

He had brass knuckles and a “black jack” club in his possession when he was arrested, the report said. The pony-tailed man has the word “angel” tattooed on his left breast.

Valle, of the 5500 block of South Fairfield, was charged with one count of aggravated battery of a government employee.

Judge Donald Panarese ordered him held in lieu of $400,000 bail this afternoon.

The Artist has a question?
What is the world coming to? Or are we there yet?

Getting around Berlin

So day 6 of taking the same train to get everywhere worked in my favor. I didnt need to ask if I was headed in the right direction. I had to trust myself. Trust that I have been paying attention to my surroundings well enough to get to the same place I go to everyday. I would have been dissapointed if I was wrong.
So anywho, the train I take is the U2, which is the most convenient train to live by if you are traveling from one side of town to the other. It goes from Zoologisher -Garten, West Berlin to Alexenderplatz, once the center of East Berlin, now the center of the city. Besides the fact that all of the good stores line these streets, you can find the best food around these places too.
Speaking of food, last night I had Turkish food for dinner. Falling in love with international cuisine. ♥
Now back to the train, besides the U2 though, you have U1-U9, which is known as the U-bahn. These trains run underground like the redline in Chicago or the subways in NY. Then you have the S-Bahn, which is above ground and circles the outskirts of the city, and buses & trams everywhere. Saying this all to make these important points:

*You don't need a car to get around
*The city is HUGE; I have a lot to see!
*I think I'm in love ♥

XOXO - The Artist

Inspiration for the week ♥

I'm a big dreamer and since Im not one to talk but do, I live big too! Do big things and get bigger things in return. Don't have to tell you my dreams, just look at my life.

Heartbreak...



...I question how real our love was? If its strong enough to eventually find each other again? Or if it was all a dream? Time knows while my heart patiently waits. Until then I must live. Can't tie myself down to what I want if its not working in my favor. You are a beautiful person baby. Warm touch, gentle eyes, comforting soul. U gave me a gift of self awareness. Im thankful for having u in my life baby. You are my forever friend who I once took a trip with. We were the only 2 people in this endless rose field. We slept on blossomed petals and exchanged hearts and wore them on our sleeves. We met love baby, it was beautiful and we shall never forget but we must set it free. That seems to be the ultimate beauty of life after all, freedom.

The artist will always love u...

Berlin, Germany

Berlin, Germany

The food is amazing. The first couple of days I was scared to try unfamiliar things but after tasting the McDonalds and Subway and realizing how horrible their version of fast food was, I was more willing to step outside of my comfort zone. There is sandwich shops, chinese restaurants, sushi, McDonalds, polish stops, and my favorite, bagel shops everywhere! My favorite bagel is the italian bagel with mozzarella cheese, spinach, green pesto sauce, and tomato, toasted with a dash of salt! Now, I would never order this in the states, maybe thats not the case though. I can't think of any restaurant in the areas I'm in where I could even order this.
The pop here goes flat after you open it the first time, so if want to burp you must down your coke or sprite as soon as you open it. Food, coffee and tea is def a major part of Berlin booming culture. Everyone takes time out of there day to enjoy a nice meal over tea or coffee and I have found a new appreciation for these things as well.

The nightlife is like no other! First off, I have been to 3 different clubs and did not have to pay to get in at all and they all were crowded to the max! Now, besides the fact that they played YMCA on the dance floor in one spot, which was a major turn off, I am having a blast. The club I went to last night had 6 different dance floors and u got 3 shots of whatever you wanted on the house plus a legit coatcheck.
And lets not forget that you can drink on the streets! No, not just a cocktail but beer, vodka, cognac, all that good stuff. Right out the bottle on the streets and walk pass the police and speak!

But I have one question for everybody!!
Where the hell is WALMART?! I never knew the importance of a Walmart or Target before because they are so conveniently accessible to me in the States but there is no place to get the little things from for cheap such as hangers, sheets, towels, school supplies. Its the little things that seem to matter the most that I never appreciated before.

I have met a lot of cool people since my arrival. My friend Sidi Epiwong is from London, her parents are Nigerian and German. She has lived a little bit of everywhere and gave me alot of the ins and outs of the city. I have already had racial encounters with a few people. Weird stares and all that other stuff but the people who have welcomed me into there space have all been amazing. Actually, last night, I went to the club with these two girls that I randomly met on the train. They were excited to know someone from Chicago but little did they know, I was even more excited to be with them. I do find it funny that most of black people I meet are Africans but the African women like white men and they all tell me that the African men are aggressive. Seeing how I love me some dark chocolate, I will consider these things before getting too comfortable with anyone.

Anywho my loves, I am in need of a camera. I want a nice Canon or Nikon camera with a changeable lense, kind of expensive but I can not continue my adventure in Europe with no way to capture the moments so that I could share them with my loves!


Sincerely yours from Berlin, Germany,

The Artist....

The Artist is back!...

Sorry for the delay my friends but life has been extremely busy! Preparing for my trip to Berlin, Germany and now I am here a settled for the time being. First and foremost, I love it here. Its like New York and well, I love NEw York which means I love Berlin. Now, all I have to do is convince my mom that she love it too and off to Berlin we will go.
Day 1: I arrived at Tegal airport at 1:30PM with three large suitcases and absolutely no idea where I was going. The place I was going to stay at was a hour away from my school and disconnected to the nightlife. So I landed at Pfefferberg hostel, right in the center of Berlin.




To make a long story short, I did what I had to do. I got off the plane knowing that this trip would be about survival of the fittest. Continuously stressing because I have absolutely no idea what decision is the best one but learning to trust my instinct. Keep myself safe and come out on top. Not stepping out on fear but faith. Allowing God to help guide in the right direction and continue to grow in ways beyond my dreams.
I am 20 years old in a city I know absolutely no one. No, I do not speak the native language but I have determination in my heart. I am living for more than just me right now so I must do the impossible.
I keep asking myself is this really my life? I remember teachers sitting me in the back of the classroom because of my speech impediment. I remember the taste of rejection. I overcame. I became the change I wanted to see in the world. I am still growing and becoming. hopefully I will conquer.
I remember my days in Quingdao, China. Fun, excited and full of adventure. Then, Mexico was even more exciting. I was 17 in a third world country by myself. Now, Berlin, Germany. I have absolutely no idea what the future has in store for me but I do know that if I want it, I will get it.

More about my adventures in Berlin soon.
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Haiti update...

PORT-AU-PRINCE, Haiti – Precious water, food and early glimmers of hope began reaching parched and hungry earthquake survivors Saturday on the streets of this shattered city, where despair at times turned into a frenzy among the ruins.
"People are so desperate for food that they are going crazy," said accountant Henry Ounche, in a crowd of hundreds who fought one another as U.S. military helicopters clattered overhead carrying aid.
When other Navy choppers dropped rations and Gatorade into a soccer stadium thronged with refugees, 200 youths began brawling, throwing stones, to get at the supplies.
Across the hilly, steamy city, where people choked on the stench of death, hope faded by the hour for finding many more victims alive in the rubble, four days after Tuesday's catastrophic earthquake.
Still, here and there, the murmur of buried victims spurred rescue crews on, even as aftershocks threatened to finish off crumbling buildings.
"No one's alive in there," a woman sobbed outside the wrecked Montana Hotel. But hope wouldn't die. "We can hear a survivor," search crew chief Alexander Luque of Namibia later reported. His men dug on. Elsewhere, an American team pulled a woman alive from a collapsed university building where she had been trapped for 97 hours. Another crew got water to three survivors whose shouts could be heard deep in the ruins of a multistory supermarket that pancaked on top of them.
Nobody knew how many were dead. Haiti's government alone has already recovered 20,000 bodies — not counting those recovered by independent agencies or relatives themselves, Prime Minister Jean-Max Bellerive told The Associated Press.
In a fresh estimate, the Pan American Health Organization said 50,000 to 100,000 people perished in the quake. Bellerive said 100,000 would "seem to be the minimum." Truckloads of corpses were being trundled to mass graves.
A U.N. humanitarian spokeswoman declared the quake the worst disaster the international organization has ever faced, since so much government and U.N. capacity in the country was demolished. In that way, Elisabeth Byrs said in Geneva, it's worse than the cataclysmic Asian tsunami of 2004: "Everything is damaged."
Also Saturday, Secretary of State Hillary Rodham Clinton flew to Port-au-Prince to pledge more American assistance and said the U.S. would be "as responsive as we need to be." President Obama met with former Presidents George W. Bush and Bill Clinton and urged Americans to donate to Haiti relief efforts.
As the day wore on, search teams recovered the body of Tunisian diplomat Hedi Annabi, the United Nations chief of mission in Haiti, and other top U.N. officials who were killed when their headquarters collapsed.
Despite many obstacles, the pace of aid delivery was picking up.
The Haitian government had established 14 distribution points for food and other supplies, and U.S. Army helicopters were reconnoitering for more. With eight city hospitals destroyed or damaged, aid groups opened five emergency health centers. Vital gear, such as water-purification units, was arriving from abroad.
Thousands lined up in the Cite Soleil slum as U.N. World Food Program workers distributed high-energy biscuits there for the first time. As the hot sun set, the crew was down to just a few dozen boxes left from six truckloads. Perhaps 10,000 people were still waiting patiently, futilely, in line.
Seven months' pregnant, and with two children, 29-year-old Florence Louis clutched her four packets. "It is enough, because I didn't have anything at all," she said.
On a hillside golf course, perhaps 50,000 people were sleeping in a makeshift tent city overlooking the stricken capital. Paratroopers of the U.S. 82nd Airborne Division flew there Saturday to set up a base for handing out water and food.
After the initial frenzy among the waiting crowd, when helicopters could only hover and toss out their cargo, a second flight landed and soldiers passed out some 2,000 military-issue ready-to-eat meals to an orderly line of Haitians.
More American help was on the way: The U.S. Navy hospital ship Comfort steamed from the port of Baltimore on Saturday and was scheduled to arrive here Thursday. More than 2,000 Marines were set to sail from North Carolina to support aid delivery and provide security.
But for the estimated 300,000 newly homeless in the streets, plazas and parks of Port-au-Prince, help was far from assured.
"They're already starting to deliver food and water, but it's mayhem. People are hungry, everybody is asking for water," said Alain Denis, a resident of the Thomassin district.
Denis's home was intact, and he and his elderly parents have some reserves, but, he said, "in a week, I don't know."
Aid delivery was still bogged down by congestion at the Port-au-Prince airport, quake damage at the seaport, poor roads and the fear of looters and robbers.
The problems at the overloaded airport forced a big Red Cross aid mission to strike out overland from Santo Domingo, almost 200 miles away in the Dominican Republic. The convoy included up to 10 trucks carrying temporary shelters, a 50-bed field hospital and some 60 medical specialists.
"It's not possible to fly anything into Port-au-Prince right now. The airport is completely congested," Red Cross spokesman Paul Conneally said from the Dominican capital.
Another convoy from the Dominican Republic steered toward a U.N. base in Port-au-Prince without stopping, its leaders fearful of sparking a riot if they handed out aid themselves.
The airport congestion touched off diplomatic rows between the U.S. military and other donor nations.
France and Brazil both lodged official complaints that the U.S. military, in control of the international airport, had denied landing permission to relief flights from their countries.
Defense Minister Nelson Jobim, who has 7,000 Brazilian U.N. peacekeeping troops in Haiti, warned against viewing the rescue effort as a unilateral American mission.
The squabbling prompted Haitian President Rene Preval, speaking with the AP, to urge all to "keep our cool and coordinate and not throw accusations."
At a simpler level, unending logistical difficulties dogged the relief effort.
A commercial-sized jet landed with rescue and medical teams from Qatar, only to find problems offloading food aid. They asked the U.S. military for help, surgeon Dr. Mootaz Aly said, and were told: "We're busy."
As relief teams grappled with on-the-ground obstacles, the U.S. leadership promised to step up aid efforts. In Washington, Obama joined with his two most recent White House predecessors to appeal for Americans to donate to the cause.
"We stand united with the people of Haiti, who have shown such incredible resilience," he said.
Their resilience was truly being tested, however.
On a back street in Port-au-Prince, a half-dozen young men ripped water pipes off walls to suck out the few drops inside. "This is very, very bad, but I am too thirsty," said Pierre Louis Delmar.
Outside a warehouse, hundreds of desperate Haitians simply dropped to their knees when workers for the agency Food for the Poor announced they would distribute rice, beans and other supplies. "They started praying right then and there," said project director Clement Belizaire.
Children and the elderly were asked to step first into line, and some 1,500 people got food, soap and rubber sandals until supplies ran out, he said.
The aid official was overcome by the tragic scene. "This was the darkest day of everybody living in Port-au-Prince," he said.

My heart goes out to you!

The aftermath of the worst earthquake in 200 years. Haiti, 2010...










The Artist heart goes out...


Late afternoon, Tuesday 12 January, the Caribbean. The sun is subsiding in the west, and, for some, it's lazy time. On his terrace in Santiago de Cuba, Eduardo Machin is sitting on a lounger, and down at the United States base on Guantanamo Bay, it's towards the end of a nothing-special kind of day.

Some 160 miles across the sea, soldiers are patrolling more purposefully. They're part of the 11,000-strong United Nations force whose task is to bring some semblance of stability to Haiti, the land of voodoo, gang-law dictators and poverty so dire that three-quarters of these, the poorest people in the Western hemisphere, live on less than £1.30 a day. Yet, street by street, bit by corrupted bit, small victories are being won by the UN and aid agencies. And that's why, as the sun dips a little lower, and the clocks in Haiti's capital, Port-au-Prince, nudge round to 4.30, it has the feel, even here, of just another Tuesday.

At a college in the Morne Hercule area, Alex Georges is in a meeting with 30 other students and their professor. At an orphanage outside the capital, Susan Westwood, a nurse from Stirling, is tending children. Over at Notre Dame Cathedral, the Archbishop of Port-au-Prince, Mgr Joseph Serge Miot, is in his office, working at his papers. Jillian Thorp, an American aid worker, is at home in the capital, looking forward to her husband's return from a trip up country. In Haiti's parliament building, Senate President Kelly Bastien is at his post; the white presidential palace, looking like a Brighton Pavilion that's just come out of the wash, gleams across its watered lawns; US reporter Jonathan M Katz potters at home – after all, there's nothing much happening in Haiti at the moment. And, at the 12-storey UN headquarters, the head of the mission, Hedi Annabi, and more than a hundred of his staff are coming to the end of the working day. They have authority here. But not as much, it's about to turn out, as the geology on which Haiti sits